Rejected But Directed

I’m tired of rejection. More than tired I’m sick. How bout sick and tired , that seems about right. I’m sick and tired of rejection. Why can’t I fast forward to the part of my life where every single thing is working out?

Walking in faith means you trust in the Lord to come through for you in whatever circumstance you are in. I’m new to that for real, I’ve never really fully trusted anything not even myself. To be real trusting in something bigger than me, let alone something I can’t see, was and still is just a bit different.

So in this season when I am putting my trust, faith and hope in God rejection hits a bit harder. If it were up to my hands alone I’d find any and everything to help me cope with it. I stopped smoking a month ago but two months ago I would’ve packed that bowl and said fuck it. And it would’ve worked , I would chill out and just do want I needed to do. Now that I don’t smoke what is it that I need to do?

No for real, what do I need to do God? Help me listen to your words and follow in the steps you have planned for me . Help me open up to your patience Lord especially in the time where I feel I need to move.

Y’all ever felt that ? You feel ready to move, you’re tired of your circumstances, you’re on the edge of a breakthrough but you just need that extra nudge? Where’s my nudge at God?! And it’s not like I’m frustrated with the Lord I’m frustrated with these mundane circumstances, where are the green pastures? I can see it, I can feel it, but I’m not in it.

The Bible talks about seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all things will be added . I’ve heard that verse a million times and it has been interpreted in so many ways but one sticks out. Have I just been seeking God for the better lifestyle that he supplies or am I truly seeking just for Him?

The ego/flesh creeps in such a sneaky way. If I don’t keep it in check it will tell me “ You deserve it all!”

You deserve the best lifestyle you can get , you deserve that luxury life , you deserve the glitz and the glamour and you can use God to get it cause He said that’s what he’ll provide.

Use God …to get the life, then you will say “it’s by the grace of God that I have succeeded” but really it is by your own selfish wants and needs. This is what the Lord talks about again in the book of Matthew 7:22-29 when he says “Many will say to Me in that day, 'Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?

' And then I will declare to them, 'I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!”

You cannot seek God and riches. So in my rejection I have to praise the Lord because who knows what my flesh would’ve done. I do want to live my best life, I do want to be taken care of, I want the absolute best for myself always but the Lord knows better. If I am to be rejected in something I thought I wanted then there must be something better that the Lord sees for me.

I cannot use God as a pawn to step on in the ladder to success. The Lord is my success . He says first seek Him and His righteousness and He will provide everything you need. Just by being with Him alone we will be provided for and I just want what the Lord has for me. And I want to be what He has called me to be not what I call myself to be.

So after being bummed in my rejection I accept it and trust in the Lord that he will provide everything that is needed and nothing that is not. It’s a tough journey but I’m choosing it so I’m going to stand firm in that.

Wait on Him and He will come. Trust in Him for He will never fail. Knock and He shall answer. Rejection holds no weight when you have faith. Amen? Amen 🙏🏾.

I love you, and until next time!

-Ifeoma 💕